I gotta learn to be strong...

Really thank god for it gives me a lot of things. But it seems that it forgets something. It forgets giving me the ability to love.

Maybe I really don’t know how to love. And now I don’t want to love anymore for I always get hurt.

That is for when I am facing something, I am really too serious. Sometimes, I think I am just like the crab and I have the shell to protect myself. But when I fall in love, I take my crab off defenselessly. I just know how to devote but never know how to protect myself. I always think if I devote, he will do the same. If I care him, he will do the same. If I love him, he will love me the same. But I am really wrong. I think that too simple. Something sometimes is far from my thinking. He never thinks about my feeling. At last, I just will be a mass of bruises.

Love is really far away. I want to have but I don’t want to get hurt. Why can’t I be selfish? If I am , maybe I won’t get hurt any more.

I won't hurt anybody, and also I don't want to get any hurt. Is the demand so hard? Maybe...